♥Desire

Today as per normal stay at home like lazy bum does . Nothing else to do then slacking at home . hahs . tomrw khasrul ahzim* came and stay at my home. oh god , i miss him . hahas! well , tomrow iam going outt to visit my grandmotha so on tuesday i'll b start werking . oh god, iam quite buzy these few days. hmm , today was a speacial day fer my sister as today was her bufday . well , heypi bufday my dearest tyra . chey dah 19 , makin tua laa dhe . *evil laugh . hahah ..

hmm , i donnoe what i want with my life actually. i felt it was so complicated. i dont know how to explain it . but somehow i need to find the solution to go through it by myself. i didint know why somehow guys acting wierd. it was like wanting to know the real truth of girls by not seeing them with its truly eyes but by judging them. what was it actualyy ? why must it continue if cnt trusts each other ? why iam so selfish of not gving my fully love? you know why, its because i dun want myself to lend over a stupiid lifes which mkes both parties hurt. you know urself hurt then why you hurt myself then? this was to nobody ., but frm wht ive been felt. about friends prblems, okay , if you cant accppt ol of my friends., then iam sorry . they are where my place to shared problems togetha but not hated. cuz ive tried to leave them once, but i cnt. ive nbody to turned up to. why i could accept whu ure friends were altho they did stuppid things that you hate or either about their fucking attitude., ?cuz iam the person whu never judge a person eventho ive known them or either didnt know them. cuz ive had no right. jgn terase laa saper nak terasee okay. cuz wht ol of this i said, kept till it bleeds inside my heart .

but wht i know i hate a guy who tried to fool me with whtever fucking reasons. a guy i hate that cares his girl friends more ten their gurlfee. whu get to know other girls on the internet altho he said' we were just my friends not more then that' . a guy who contact with other girls everyday. who didnt trusts me once. who olwaes think negative towards me although ive tried to be faithful. who secretly chat with a girl without me being notice. a guy who tries to think that he's olwaes rite cuz he know he's a guy? . who's selfish. i hate a guy who was trying to show off to people about the body